blessed beyond belief

i'm not even sure where to begin. i have been so humbled in the last week by the generosity of so many. truly humbled. i have been whining (yes, there is no better word to describe what i was doing) to chris for the last couple of weeks about the amount of stuff that we still had to purchase for the baby and how much work was left before he could come. i even caught myself several times saying that he is just not allowed to come early because we aren't ready. it's been really stressful trying to maintain my workload at my job while trying to prepare for a baby. chris has been travelling every week for the last month or so, trying to get it all in before march. in all the insanity, i broke down once or twice at the thought of how much was being neglected and how unprepared i felt. i was so busy focusing on my anxiety and complaining about how much it was all costing. being grateful was simply not on my list of things to do.
we had the most beautiful baby shower a few weeks ago, and we were so blessed by our friends and family here in north carolina. i fully expected that this show of generosity would be our only shower, as all of our other friends and family live so far away (and our families have already been so generous). but this last week has forced me to really be humbled--both by tremendous generosity and by admission of my own lack of trust in God's provision. we have been blessed by several friends and family with some amazing (long-distance) support as we continue to get ready for this baby. my coworker and several other friends through my job in yadkin threw me a surprise baby shower yesterday (i have NEVER had a surprise party and it was fabulous!!!) and it was such a blessing to feel the love of people i work with daily here. my coworkers in the other offices are throwing another shower/farewell party in a few weeks, and chris's coworkers are showering us with love next week. here i sat grumbling at how much there was to do, all the while forgetting God's hand in everything. He has provided for us in such a tremendous way through the love of several. and i have learned that i need to keep my mouth shut and practice gratitude instead.