i get to see the doctor again next week. i can't wait. which is totally crazy because going to that doctor always involves wearing a paper robe and draping a paper sheet over my legs and donning booties. i feel like i have nothing to hide anymore. i know that everyone else looks just like me. and it is no longer embarrassing. in fact, since i know we're making progress, i actually look forward to those appointments. strange.
i promise to write a better update next thursday. i have been so busy and unable to really write about all that's going on. but i will. i want this to really document my journey so i have to do a better job of keeping up. even though it's just for me.
on another note, my diet has been....well, off lately. i have cheated more times than i care to count. i keep telling myself that it's because i have to eat and i can't help it if the choices aren't gf/df. but when there are choices. and i choose to eat something i shouldn't. i can't blame anyone but me. and now that i've developed a taste for things again, it's like trying to quit all over again. sucks. i will blame my birthday. cause there was cake. and i'm just gonna say that was the beginning of a downward spiral. haha oh well. i've been good today. so far. but i'm craving a milkshake like it's my job. we'll see if i can hold out.
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